Thinking and Self Reflection

Life was a lot easier when I was younger. Situations were easier to deal with. Concepts were simple and easier to understand. A lot of people knew more than enough about me, I had people who knew me. I've always been too hung up on the past, fully understanding that things would never be the same. I'd spend countless hours thinking about it, wondering how things would have turned out if I didn't take various paths that I had chosen to take. For the most part, I imagined they would have turned out better.
I think the most changed happened in my freshman year of college, I entered this new world with a fifteen year old body. My biggest fear was to not been taken seriously because I was younger than everyone else , so I rebelled. Now that I look back , I should have just let my fifteen year old self be who she was. I can barely understand what goes on in my head anymore. So I'm using this moment in this dark, noiseless living room with no other source of light but my laptop screen to further understand me, myself and my mind. This is my first self reflection i'm really not sure if i'm doing it right but here goes
Would I do it all over again if I could ? I know I'm supposed to say no but Yes, yes I would. But since I can't where do I go from here ?
Don't waste time with relationships you see no future in
Quickly made relationships should rarely be relied on
Attention from the male species is unnecessary, they bring you babies and emotional wreckage.
Fake friends are easy to spot. Trust your instincts. Please, please open your eyes.The end result can hurt really bad.
Be nicer to people, even those that did you wrong (some of them ) give a smile, try your best. It warms your heart.
Try to put an effort in creating and maintaining your friendships, but not too much effort. Those that require a lot would usually never be worth it.
Don't be afraid to let go of people holding you down , but don't let people go so hastily.
Try and open up to people, break out of your comfort zone. Socialize
Friends come and most especially they go, don't be too hard on yourself when dealing with it .
When being shown love , don't push it away ,at least try to acknowledge it.
Don't ever feel unworthy, don't speculate on people's true intentions too much, they are mostly not meant to be discovered.
Don't over-think things, enjoy life's simplicity
Sleep peacefully.

Turning 18

I just turned 18 whoo hooo!!! According to U.S Laws and a majority of the countries of the world. I am an ADULT. Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd my head is blank. So what do I have planned for today. Welll I have classes from 11 until 9pm. Treasurer training for my campus organization , an essay on the world ending in 2 weeks due today and an asian economic history book review yet to be composed. Some how I am still very ecstatic about today, I mean why wouldn't I be! I am 18 now. You could put me under a pile of the London dungeon rats and I'd still be ecstatic ( not about the condition, of course). I am just happy to see another year. On a special day like this, while when most people are hung up about who came to their after party,who called, who bought them cards, gift etc,what I think about the most (outside of my fabulous self ,of course) are the people who have been there for me and had my back the entire year! and I hope we have another year. Those are my family and true friends. and I truly appreciate each and everyone of you. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

- written September 12 2012 , but never got posted.