I'm feeling so defeated by school right now. The other day, I had an exam that I did really badly in and it multiplied my exhaustion with school by a number so large I cannot conceptualize. I spent the rest of the day just upset and mad about how terribly the exam went.
I'm currently three months into a one-year masters program and I am at the very end of my interest in academics and being a student to any academic institution, at this point in my life. The main reason for that is the COST of academia. Academia, why you so expensive ? WHY ??!!
The rising prices of tuition fee is just half of it. I am mostly perplexed by the amount of time it takes and the opportunities you give up just by being here , for example, I have a lot of plans right now, more than I have ever had at any specific time in my life and I feel like I have to put even the mere thoughts of these plans on hold because I have exams coming up and I have to prepare for that . Being a student ,basically, means that you give your undervalued life to an organization, adhere to random code of conducts framed loosely around the pretence of education and throw everything you have and you could have, all for a very miniscule reward at the end of the road.
But middle class is cool though. Education is great. I am very privileged to be here and I realize the number of people that dream of being in my shoes right now is large and growing. Just knowing that is enough reason for me keep pushing on, no matter how many times I get smacked in the face by academia. For the time being, I have to put my plans on hold and enjoy this bumpy ride to middle-class, however, once it lands I'd be hopping on a connecting flight to 1%.
*Note the destination "1%" in this post does not necessarily relate to the group of people at the top 1% of the wealth scale, although that of course would be nice, very nice.
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